Monday was definitely a "Miracles Happen" day (those of you who have seen Princess Diaries know what I'm talking about). I realized halfway through the day at school that my carpool and I had forgotten to place our carpool permits in the dash of my car (translation: $50 ticket). Of course, I was on my way to my last class- across campus- so there was nothing I could do about it. All I could do was hope and pray that the inspector was somehow oblivious to the fact that we were parked in a carpool spot without permits, but internally, I knew it was a slim chance. Turns out the improbable became the verdit- no parking ticket for me! Thank God!
Other days, as I mentioned in my last blog post, resemble more "Ordinary Day" by ZOEgirl. The song says: "Things are crazy but it's all right. You make me feel alright again. When it rains you are the sunshine.That lights me up from deep with in."
Today isn't either one of those days: Unfortunately, today is.... the song that never ends.
For those of you that are unfamiliar with the song, it goes like this: "This is the song that never ends. It goes on and on my friends. Some people started singing it not knowing what it was, and now we can't stop singing it forever just because it is the song that never ends. It goes on and on...." And on and on and gets really annoying.
Days like this seem like a skipping record. I always feel a little bit like, "I'm pretty sure I've already been through this before."
So, you may ask. What exactly makes today the never-ending song?
I got in trouble. Again. Grounded. Uh-huh. That's right. AGAIN. And after 112 times of listening to "The song that never ends" I am sooo ready for it to stop.
I should like to insert here that the episodes which result in my grouchiness often happen when I am in one of two situations: 1) When I am under high stress situations where my brain is overloaded (e.g. first week of school) and 2) A few days before I experience that monthly phenomenon that knocks me in the gut. Literally. (e.g. today).
I suppose I am insane. Because, yes, I do the same thing over and over again and expect a different result. But woe is me, no different result ever shows. I need therapy.
I guess the only way to stop getting in trouble is to shape up my attitude. Or learn better stress and anger management. Or all of the above.
The point is that I can make that record stop skipping at any time. I need to quit pressing "Random play" and letting my emotions dictate my behavior. I can calmly walk over to my internal stereo and press the skip button. Next song, please.
I can move on. My headaches, my emotions, my fears, my stress, my insecurities- none if it is too big for God. I need to remember that He is strong enough to overcome all the things I can't. Sometimes I literally cannot be kind. I don't have enough strength for it. But God does. And that is why Jesus lives inside me- to help me live a life that is truly worth singing about.
"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13
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